Monday, March 2, 2009

Awake Up its 2:27AM

What am I doing up? Why am I awake? Am I watching, waiting? Why can't I sleep? Questions w/no answers. No worries Mate. I am here now, and guess that's just 'what is'....The house is quiet except for the heat vents, and chimes ringing outside, its still pretty cold n windy out there...still some snow can be seen...

Loved the words HE gave me tonight...being still & quiet, listening to music, reaching out to my love ones w/youtubes, sending out my love LIGHT to them, praying they'll grab hold, to His hem...

Watched the "Passion" again, cried at different scenes...remembering His pain, His endurance, His love...O How I love You Yeshua!

Appetite is really down, this seems okay, am getting rest/sleep just waiting before Him, praying, listening...Its a 'special' time right now...day is almost done, summer is coming, spring will be here any second. 

His words like a hammer & like silk against my skin, sometimes feeling like I am being turned inside out, cleaned, washed, bleached, again & again...wanting to be more and more silent yet everything in me is screaming for those asleep to awaken, live, breathe Him in.

Am I in the whirlwind? No not yet, but there are times when the winds kick up so high, and so bold I just stand still w/my arms lifted to the heavens to my Daddy strecthing, reaching for Him like a child. Music, worship, dance is w/i me it rises up to praise, to warn, to warfare...I must endure this race, the finish line is so close.

He is w/me, He will never leave me, He is the FIRE that burns w/i me...by the roots Yeshua take everything out that is not of you, every lie, every deception, manipulation, every evil thread that wove its way...deliver me and heal me, for You are the only ONE who can FREE me...

Yeshua Your Body needs You more then ever, we are crying out to YOU, O Yeshua Come, Come quickly...but here I am I will remain true, I will stay right here & wait upon YOU....all night long, all day long, day after day, night after night, week after week, year after year, YESHUA I am here for YOU